For the first seven years of Ryan Sleboda鈥檚 life, he did not speak.
Sleboda, who has autism, communicated only through noises and gestures. He got frustrated. He acted out. His parents, exhausted and worried, did everything they could to help him. That meant he saw different therapists and went to the right schools.
Fifteen years later, he surprised them by singing a song he wrote called 鈥淥verthink鈥� as the family rode together in the car around Christmas last year. Overcome with emotion, his father, Bill, stopped and pulled the car over. His parents cried. They knew how far the 海角社区 senior had come in expressing himself.
鈥淚t totally blew our minds,鈥� said his mother Susan Sleboda.
Ryan, 22, wrote and recorded 鈥淥verthink,鈥� a song that carries a deep meaning about the anxiety he keeps inside. He recently released the music on social media and all major platforms this year.
Ryan probably isn鈥檛 going to win a Grammy. He won鈥檛 likely be the next big recording artist. (Not that he wants to be one, anyway. Ryan is focused on his goal of opening his own doggy daycare business after he graduates.)
For the Sanford native, the beauty of writing 鈥淥verthink鈥� was finding a new creative outlet to share his thoughts. He had never written a song before.
鈥淪ince I started my junior year, I really started realizing that I was overthinking about pretty much everything 鈥� myself, my autism, the people I hang out with, my family, and even academics 鈥� and especially life after college,鈥� Ryan said.
At midnight in his room, when everything was quiet and he could focus, he started writing the lyrics to 鈥淥verthink鈥� last year.
Sometimes I don’t know what I’m thinkin,’ my mind’s foggy
All these feelings are making me break, are making me ache, it’s hazy
I do what I can to make my path go right but I’m hesitant
Within a week, the song was out of Ryan鈥檚 head and immortalized in words.
Writing it made him feel better, too.
And proud.
鈥淚 felt like I just did something very new, that I didn’t think that I was ever going to do in life,鈥� said Ryan, who is majoring in anthrozoology with a minor in web and digital media.
He and his family hope others connect to his song about those feelings of worrying and anxiety.
鈥淚t鈥檚 how everybody feels at some point in their life 鈥� whether you have a disability or you don’t have a disability,鈥� Susan said. 鈥淓verybody goes through those moments.鈥�
What makes Ryan鈥檚 side project even more special is he found other 海角社区 students to collaborate with and have fun together in the process of creating his music. Senior Ian Gonzalez, 23, of Orlando, developed the beat for 鈥淥verthink.鈥� Ryan recorded the song with another friend, Zachary Murray, who also designed the cover art photo for the song.
Murray, 22, a senior from New Jersey, said he found joy using skills he learned from his web and digital media major at the same time he was helping out his friend.
鈥淚t’s incredible because I look at the album cover every day. It’s everywhere from YouTube to Spotify or Pandora to Apple Music,鈥� Murray said.
For Ryan, the finished version of the song took time to get used to, he said.
Ryan, not used to hearing his own voice before, listened to it over and over.
He analyzed his voice and the quality of the recording. He thought about what he can change next time when he records more music and keeps experimenting with blurring different genres of pop, hip hop and rap.
Yes, Ryan admitted with a laugh. He was overthinking 鈥淥verthink.鈥�